過去 已經過去 眼前 你要珍惜 Ham~~如果她願意
替我愛你 就讓她替我跟你鬥嘴鬧情緒
聽你說她很細心 善解人意 她真的比我更適合你
讓她愛你 就讓她替我陪你熱鬧或孤寂
抱歉的話別再提 就到這裡 我真心願意讓她替我愛你
2007年4月30日 星期一
今年四月一定是我的惡魔月[生日除外..每年的生日也是我的大衰日. .有時還要以週計算]...發生了 一堆零零種種的衰事
光這個月我就3次差點上學遲到而搭計程車去學校...每次都是在最後一分鐘趕上升旗.[在RJ1年又4個月第一次發生這種事...]
NAFA考2.4公里那周剛好生病...補考時又下雨不能跑...再補考的那天我整天有課不能去...
後來和體育老師約好一起喬2.4考試時間竟然還被她放鴿子 [有夠給它XXX的]
今天又因忘了做地理老師的功課而被罵了一頓..差點被記小過..不過要在星期三之前補交上三篇功課..這是我第一次忘了做地理作業的說...超衰的
華文課每次上詩詞時都忘記帶課本..好在有帶筆記,不然又要被罰了. 還有一個禮拜我竟然把武俠小說的課和詩詞的課記反了,所以帶錯課本.而且還是踏進教室前5分鐘才發現的...夠監介
這個月諸事不順..還特別健忘,丟三忘四的..SYF那天除了弓和表演服裝外,其他的東西不是忘在學校就是沒從SL身上拿回來...靜音器,stopper,譜....=.=
好在今天是四月的最後一天了 [萬歲~~~]
期待明天[五月起]會更好
阿們
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下午4:23
2007年4月25日 星期三
Met one of my best friend during primary sch days yesterday. Haven't seen her for almost 5 yrs. Though time fly, but i am glad that 2 of us don't change much. we can still recognize each other, talk to each other as the way we did during the primary sch days. =) heard one of our classmate had changed from a good boy to some gangster.. feel sad for him. He used to be really funny and sweet boy in our class. maybe under-perform during O'level really hurt him a lot. [but heard he remain as a flirt as before]
Cancelled my bass lesson today. didn't practice bass ever after SYF and the lat YO rhsl. Also dun feel like touch bass for at least one week. Suddenly rmb what my teacher told me during our last lesson:"i hope i dun have to teach any of you for at least 2 weeks!! I need a break!!". That's exactly how i feel now. I amgiving a break for myself, away from all the rhsls and practices and lessons.!! i shall live one week without bass :P
despite that, i realised music has taken a major part of my life. it has become so important that i can't even imagine a day without music. Yesterday aft maths makeup lecture, i heard some people playing violin and piano. suddenly, i felt a urge to go up and see who's playing. maybe i dun really like to practice, but i really enjoy music.
Something was wrong with me and i played really badly for last YO rhsl before it's exam breaks.. During Brahms Symphony NO.1 in C minor 4th movement, i misunderstood the conductor and played too fast. Then the whole section followed me... until they realised it's wrong. after the rhsl, the king on my left and dinah on my right scolded me for misleading and confused the whole section AT THE SAME TIME. all i can do is to hug my bass and cover my ears [coz their voices are really loud] and endure the whole 1 minute of non-stop scolding. it's quite embarrassing [and scary] though, but i think it'll look quite comical if they took a photo of that.. haha
juz realised our YO section always take turns to come for rhsl.. when Dinah appear, TianCheng got something on; Sandra comes, then Benjamin had exams; Yuze finally can make it after SYF, then Tedson is sick. i guess till the day i retire from yo, we will never have a full section .. =.=lll
DHSSE is having a BBQ at Ms Ku's place this Friday. My class is having a BBQ at a classmate's house this Saturday. My friend is holding a free concert this Friday too. BUT I CAN'T GO FOR ANY OF THEM coz i am going CIP with Joy!!!! quite sad, but i am really looking forward for the CIP. according to her, it's going to be like some backstage work for a play. it sounds interesting =) moreover, we can get free tickets to watch the play aft our CIP !! i used to tell my dad that i want to try all the careers in the world when i grow up. I AM ON MY WAY THERE NOW !!! lol =P
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上午9:49
2007年4月21日 星期六
今天到國大文化中心參加了一場文化饗宴. 台灣的鄉土小說家黃春明先生和上海作家趙麗宏先生受邀到新加坡演講.主題分別是<小說與我>和<散文與我>. 好高興能夠參加這次的演講. 兩位主講者生動有趣的演講,將原本應是枯燥無味的主題增色不少.
原來...
散文 注重的是 情[感情] 真[真實的經歷] 知[知識]
小說 就是以虛擬的事件 凸顯出一個普遍的 大眾化的問題 並從中進行批評和抨擊
遇見了很久沒見的阿嬤..代表聯合早報學生記者來採訪 =) 順便跟著她一起去採訪作家們和學生們有關這次演講的意見..多知道了趙麗宏先生的事情,也更了解記者的工作 =P
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晚上7:55
for some reason [which i have no idea why and what] , more and more people came and tell me that they found my blog. and apparently, they come here quite often. juz that they are too lazy to tag here [ i think]. Ivan was threatening me that he is going to put in his blog that "Rayner, if you are reading my blog, go to Shu Fang's blog !!"... guess i am really telling the whole world too much things that i shan't tell =.=lll
always take this blog as a place for me to 宣洩. to show my true feelings to some of my close friends. but things juz get rolling like a snowball. people i never expect to visit come. i wonder how they know my blog in the first place =.=lll guess i really type very "interesting" stuff here that everyone juz tell others to come and read :P
i muz say these people are really good coz this blog only set up in late February 2007 :P thank you for your support.... haha
anyway, for your information , this is the photo of Kevin's broken bow. he juz bought it at most 2 months ago and it broke by such a weird manner that none of us have seen it before :P
never seen a bow break by tip... interesting
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晚上7:40
2007年4月20日 星期五
YEAH~~~ I am really happy now. so many things happened before and during SYF tt i really thought we are going to get silver [especially when Shawn kept saying we will only get COP at the chair behind me =.=lll... touch wood!!]...
1. Kevin broke his bow 2 days before SYF
2. I can only get another bow on the SYF day itself, so he has not time to get use to it
3. the bus which supposed to fetch us to SCH came late
4. we don't have a tuner before we entered the tuning room
5. the basses are separated from the chamber before entering the stage, and we are super unprepared!!! thought going up stage with ONLY 3 of us !!
6. there is no helpers to help us do the seating arrangement or put the stoppers for basses!!
7. the basses freak out and entered wrongly for the first bar of Elegy [yucks!!!!]
everything went badly for today... luckily the result turned out well. It's the first time i feel so unsecure before and after playing for SYF. I almost cried right aft our performance. but Rachael and Zhangyi said we sounded ok... Ngan said maybe becoz we never tried SCH before not we are not used to the sound. Nevertheless, SCH did make us sounds better in a way that the intonation sounds better to me... not as out of tune as usual=P maybe it did help a bit.
anyway it's all over. so glad Dunman High also achieved GWH. finally can 揚眉吐氣 in front of the band people. lol
saw a lot of seniors and friends today. lots of ppl from YO, seniors like Lejia, Enqi, Toon Li, Wendy, Malisa, Alphon... Saw Dinah with her cello [haha], Liying with her hot SYF attire, Eliz and Baopeng =) also saw other friends like Rachael and Zhangyi.. SYF always give me a feeling of musical friends gathering party coz you can always find your long-time-no-see musical friends :P
P.S . apparently many ppl were scared by the photos put in "My Conscience" entry... dun mean to do it..promise won't put that kind of photo anymore =.= sorry for scaring all of you Orz
RL !!!! you owe me a Neoprint taking session now !!! let's all go and take next Saturday after Chamber election !!! haha
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晚上8:31
2007年4月19日 星期四
Observation from yesterday's chamber rehearsal:
- The performer can break his bow [ouch!!] and drag a chair to sit and rest
- The SL can lend his bow to the loser, who broke his bow,and take a rest
- The performer are also free to go down the stage to slack, as well as chat with other audiences
- The performer can play chopstick with audience [wow]
- The audience can conduct [or give instructions to] the performers behind the conductor's back
- The audience can threaten the performers before they start playing
Interesting duh? I never know performers can do so many things with audiences
Extremely stressed over SYF now. feel so unprepare compare to 2 yr or 4 yr ago. It seems like we have not done anything and we are facing the competition already =.=lll
Feel really threaten by Ms Ku when she said:"You are the 21th batch of RJ students going for the 11th SYF with 9 Gold and 1 Gold with Honours in front of you"... It will be very 丟臉 if RJ 的一世英名毁在我們的手上...無顏見江東父老...
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上午10:59
2007年4月18日 星期三
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上午9:04
2007年4月15日 星期日
Bought a bass stopper today. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ GOOD NEWS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Mrs Wong IS BUYING A NEW BASS FOR ME !!!She was going around and asking who take the $8000 bass.. it turned out to be Dinah who ponned becoz of band.. then she came to me and ask for my bass number and it's condition. I told her it's ok but not very good. then i ask,"Mrs Wong, you are buying me a new bass arh?" AND SHE REPLIED YES !!!! OMG ~~~~ i never thought this will happen to me !!!! YUPPPEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! too bad i can only own it for one term. leaving for A'level break soon.. I am going to sign "SHU FANG IS THE FIRST ONE TO USE THIS BASS" on it TC suggested our whole section shall write " BASS ROCKS " on my new bass and "RAYNER SUCKS" on Rayner's bass on our last day in yo.. haha
I had a bad day.
correction,
I AM HAVING a bad week.
what can be worse than getting C for PW juz becoz your teacher sucks as it's her first and only time teaching that subject and she had left the school?
how abt your SL told you,"if you can't come in in tune, why don't you juz play softly and juz let me cover you? " after you have been practicing 1.5 hours almost everyday,tuned note by note and all your fingerings have blisters?
life simply sucks.
although the thing between Rayner and I had been solved and it turned out to be he is hinting Kevin, not pointing at me, still feel quite pissed abt telling that kind of thing in front of me....
almost throw the bass at him and tell him that:"老娘不幹了" and walk out the room.
too bad i dun dare.
I juz went to look for Ngon Lung, Karmun and Mitch... simply broke down in front of them. felt really insulted by what he said. they were so shocked to see me crying. kept comforting me and hugged me, helped me scold the bastard. I was really touch by whatever they did. Especially when they said,"don't worry, you are never alone in the school. we will always be there with you."
feel great to have friends like them =)
Ngan and i were feeling random and we decided to take Neoprints together.
apparently there is no one in the NeoPrint shop.. so we went around J8 to look for ppl with 10 $1 coins... troublesome but fun =P
here are the products:
told Sandra and Ben abt Rayner's Birthday Msg as well his bastard speech today. They both felt angry for me too. Sandra was complaining tt he's so ugly looking , why are there still so many girls like him (Ben & I actually think she is jealous.. juz joking).. actually i wondered too... maybe the girls are juz blind.. they shall go and check out their eyes one day.
suddenly realised, i got a lot of supportive friends around me. they have faith in me, they share my joy and sorrow with me. they bright my day. they rock !!
thank you for always been there !! love you guys always <3~~
always thought bass stoppers are difficult to use coz difficult to aim at the small hole. some made of sponges, and we always ended up creating holes on the stopper and destroying it. but this stopper is made of hard plastic and it's easy to aim.. and it won't slide away too =)
very good !!
the only bad thing is, it's quite expensive.. (see above). luckily claiming from school. thinking abt stealing one home aft SYF.. anyway they dun need so many stoppers as they only have 2 bass (Rayner is getting one too)... i guess
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凌晨12:30
2007年4月9日 星期一
this is the period of time that i feel like chopping off my nose : i simply can't breath due the the block/running nose =.=lll everytime i think i am getting better, the next moment it starts again... so frustrating.
the only good (?) thing abt this flu is : i finally confirm that my dad and i are blood-related!!!(duh? actually i never doubt that before :P) my mum told me that the very day when i was suddenly sick, my dad fell sick too. both of us are suddenly sick on the same day, though one in Taiwan and the other one in Singapore, but it is so 巧... haha.
school is quite productive today. we actually managed to finsih go through the CT comprehension during GP and we did till Question d for Econ CT Case study during Econ. wonder what is Civics for if the teachers are just going to come into the classroom, mark attendence, and leave.-.-lll
saw the funny birthday msg that my Sharon Ling 's friend posted to Rayner. It says :"Rayner Teo, Will You Have My Babies".. it sounds funny coz i thought rayner is male and it's quite impossible for him to give birth to babies... but according to Sharon Ling, there is other meaning behind it :P shan't share it here in case the king saw it and kill me. I will bring my Camera to school tml and took a photo of it :)
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下午4:13
2007年4月7日 星期六
I am sick. Again.
feel like i always get sick every half a month. and everytime it will last for 2 weeks. so i am sick whole year round =.=ll
I was sick SUDDENLY this time. Was ok in the morning (still went to run 2.4 with the class). But in the afternoon, suddenly have running nose, sore throat, coughing and headache. It sounds weird but it's true.... even my chinese teacher asked me was i ok >.<
Sigh...
Can't go back DHSSE today so that i won't pass the flu to them.. luckily i am not teaching anymore, or else i have to cancel the lessons and give make up again, and it's really troublesome to find the common timing among the 6 students... can't go for Bass Lesson too, Ms Yeo will kill me if i pass the flu to all her 3 kids.. it's be chaos to her.
thank God there is a 3 day weekend this week (Easter).. can stay at home and sleep more to recover... hope it'll be better by next week.. or else i have to get MC and need to do NAFA on another day... so troublesome
time to drink more water and sleep Zzzz (feel like i have drank more water in a day now than the total amount i had drank in a week last time)
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中午12:29
2007年4月4日 星期三
OMG... i actually dun plan to blog tonight. But something happened during chamber today, and it's so funny that i think there is a need to share... haha
during chamber today, Rayner fell down from staircase while carrying the chairs. i wasn't there to witness it (or else i will video it down) coz i went back chamber room to get my stands+bow+scores, by the time i got back to LT2, i juz saw a group of ex-RI guys surround him, offering him ices, towels, help him sit on the chair blah blah blah... ( it really make him looks like king... all the RI slaves)
though he sprained his ankle, Rayner insisted on playing so he "hopped" up the stage (it simply looks funny). He wasn't not wearing shoe on his injured left leg and he showed it to us (i wanna took a photo to show everyone and mass send it to everyone who knows Rayner but he rejected). wow it looked like he got 2 ankles. to remember this event, we the RJC chamber bass section decided to name it "the double ankle (angle) formula"...lol
this suddenly remind me of a joke Ms Yeo told me during the bass lesson yesterday. we were talking abt how the quality of bassists drop as years go by then. she said there is one NYGS sec one bassist (her student), when she was holding the bass one day, she saw her schoolbag felling down from the chair. so she LET GO OF THE BASS TO SAVE HER BAG !!! I was so shock when i heard this story. how can someone sacrifice a at least $1.8K bass for some at most $300 school bag !!! the incident that Rayner sprained down from stairs while carrying the chair is kind of alike to the NYGS bassist who forgo her bass for her bag :P
the only good thing is, Rayner actually become a nicer person to go with after he sprained his ankle (weirdly but it's true). He was joking around with Kevin and I during the chamber pract. normally if i suan him abt his out-of-tone attempt to play the cello solo part for Verdi, he will ask me to shut up (in chinese... wow )and dao me. but when i did it today, he actually stop playing and didn't look piss !!! (maybe he finally realised how out-of-tune he is)
After that, i was teasing him that the only chinese words he know is shut up (閉嘴), it goes:
Rayner:"no, i know more than that, i know Yang Shu Fang (楊淑芳)too "
Me:" (dun expect such answer at first)... sad for you, you dun even know your own name."
Rayner:"i know ok, it's Zhang Yun Wei (張雲偉...i guess)"
Me:"wow, you actually know 8 chinese words. not bad."
Rayner:"(looks suspicious) are you making me saying it (his chinese name) just now?"
Me:"what shall i ? i know it wah, it's in YO concert programme"
Rayner:"......"
Yeah. One win for me :P (actually i dun expect him to chat with me like this at first. this shows how good his mood is today)
conclusion for the day: Rayner is only nice to go with when he's injured.
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晚上8:49
i really dun understand why... ppl around me always ask me abt Rayner. it seems that the whole world thinks that i am very close to Rayner and i ought to know everything abt it. IT IS NOT TRUE OK ?!?!
Yes i must admit that we have a lot of thing in common:
1) we are both bassists
2) we are both in Chamber & YO...same section somemore (duh?)
3) we have the same bass teacher (Ms Karen Yeo)
4) we are both studying in RJC and are in Arts stream
5) we take the similar subject combi (H2 geo, econ, math, Lit - Rayner take E lit but i take C lit)
6) our class are juz beside each other during assembly (duh? there is only 2 geog class in Arts stream..)
So what ? all these things do not explain why i muz be close to him wah.....
Some of my friends are teasing me that 2 of us are fated to be together, coz we have so many things is common. Personally, i dun think it shall be described as FATED, i will rather it to be described as SUAY. i am so suay to be common with him in so many things, and suay enough to have him as my SL for both my CCAs. And the suayest thing is, i have to see him almost everyday....=.=lll (thank God there's still a Sunday. I think i will rather die if i have to see him on Sunday too....)
that's it. i had enough already. can you all stop asking me abt him??? THERE IS NOTHING BETWEEN 2 OF US!!! NOTHING!! i dun know everything and anything abt Rayner and you will be very disappointed if you ask me comments abt him coz
1) I only have tons of negative comment abt him, and i believe the Rayner in my eyes is a totally different person from the Rayner in your eyes.
2) i only know abt the things abt him coz ppl around me always thought i am very close to him and keep telling me things abt him. it's not becoz i am very close to me and he tell me everything !!
My bass teacher asked me abt Rayner's results after promo coz she dun want to ask him personaly.
My form teacher is now asking me that,"you are in same CCA as Rayner arh? can you tell me more abt it? i want to know more abt my student..."
And some people juz keep ask me does Rayner have girlfriend... HOW DO I KNOW??? i am not Rayner nor his girlfriend (the poor victim) right? you all shall go and ask him yourself!! not ask me!!
p.s. stop putting 2 of us together too... we kind of hate each other. he always pick on me for the things i do/play.. and i always dao him... maybe he is juz jealous that i am more popular than him in the YO bass section :P (somemore my yo friends foresee him as a wife-beater in future.... i won't be so cruel to myself :P)
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上午8:58
2007年4月1日 星期日
Lester
Jia Ying (a bit pale coz she is sick today)
Mdm Eu is oversea now.. so i can't take a photo with her. She is a really nice lady who treats me like her own daughter.( she gave me hongbao on CNY and bought me lunch if i need to stay back to give extra/makeup lessons to her.... how sweer <3)
However, life is not always that smooth and you don't always get good students. Sometimes they rather go shopping, go to sleep, go to read, go to do whatever things they have, but juz refuse to pract piano before they come for lesson. Almost all my students got scolded by me for not doing their works. Sometimes they simply can't absorb whatever you said to them. Then you feel extremely depress =.=lll (i had made one of them copy D major scales almose 100 times and he still tell me that D major begins on E and ends on A, the key signature is D# and G#...)
It's a great experience to teach. As i teach them, i learns with them too. i become more aware of rhythem, notes, dynmics blah blah blah coz i need to explain to them in the simplest way that they can understand. It's very fun to mix with kids. it makes you feel younger too :P you also get to understand how difficult it is to be a teacher, and treasure all the efforts your sch teachers have spent on you :)
After this year of teaching, i realised : i am actually quite good at kids :P I dun really mind teaching them, in fact, i enjoy teaching them. (and they think i am a good teacher too :) which make me feel extremely happy as this is juz my first yr teaching yet all my student like my teacher style and think i am good!!! yeah~~~)maybe i can consider become a teacher in future =) haha
Now most of my cureent commitments have come to an end. It's time for me to concerntrate on mugging and prepare for A'level... did terriblly for my CT despite i had mug really hard for it... feel really sad =S nvm, there is still one more to go in June. Hope i will know how to answer essay questions by then!!! God bless...
Lastly...Today is Ngan Ching's birthday~~~ HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY NGAN!!!!
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晚上9:59