::靜夜思::

替我愛你

就因為發現你眼底　閃動為我牽掛的猶豫
這些日子為你亂的心　忽然全都釋懷平靜
關於她不完全怪你　是我大意讓她靠近你
對愛情自己是太自信　失敗了　我輸得起

過去　已經過去　眼前　你要珍惜　Ham~~如果她願意

替我愛你　就讓她替我跟你鬥嘴鬧情緒
聽你說她很細心　善解人意　她真的比我更適合你
讓她愛你　就讓她替我陪你熱鬧或孤寂
抱歉的話別再提　就到這裡　我真心願意讓她替我愛你

作詞：黃祖蔭　作曲：Tommy Wu　編曲：屠穎　演唱：田馥甄Hebe

Gambai!!

2008年3月31日星期一

Went kbox with my tuition friends [elizabeth and huiyu] today. It’s really cool consider:

1) How many people have good relationship with your tuition friend? [in Taiwan/Japan, they will simply eat each other up before exams]
2) How many people keep in touch with tuition friends for 6 years, even after you are not in the same tuition centre anymore?

It’s my first time in Kbox. Great experience I muz say. Juz that it’s too expense if you are not using the student plan. We all sing until I can’t shout anymore. And Huiyu’s boyfriend helped us take photos [forgot not mention, we are a bunch of photo obsess people…]. We sang male, female, modern, old, duet, bands… songs, and the only common thing is they are all Chinese :P haha

After the kbox, we went to take neoprints too :) wonderful ending for a day ^^

missing the days when we bullied the tutors together... billy maya, mr ng... [laughing at mr maya's leg tatto, talking in ng's lesson coz we finished the practices too early, asking questions not related to english during english class and listening to all maya's stories...]

too bad can't visit ng today. muz find another day to go back and bully him and maya again !!

always, friends forever =) hope we can really keep this promise and continue our relationships, even if we were 100 yrs old. <3 cheers for out friendship !!

Sharing today’s photos and neoprints :D [I tried my best, but the neoprints are not that clear =.= ]

our dear huiyu [she becomes so pretty~~ even i am jealous of her :P]

the queen Elizabeth [the kbox pro among us :)]

the S.H.E from Mavis Tuition Centre !! [Shufang Huiyu Elizabeth...lol]

~~~ NeoPrintz ~~~

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晚上11:20

end of everything

2008年3月28日星期五

ok. last 3 days i have been experiencing great changes and events in my life. for those who dunno, on 25 march 2008, i went for the NTU accountancy interview, i was appointed as the new SL for the bass section in YO(and it's 2 nights just before the concert), and i was scolded by an angry parent. I was totally stressed out on that night. so some ppl may have received my cries for help and managed to console me then. Thank you for being there when i was so desperate~~ ^.^

so on 26 march, things began to sort out. I told the ex-first desk ppl abt the YO management board and the conductor's decision. TC understood perfectly, and he came back to console me not to feel so bad (how sweet :)) coz he was expecting that to happen. YZ think he got valid excuses and couldn't accept the fact, so he dragged TC to reflect to the management board. i shan't explain the politics involved here, but anyway, the management board promised to look at this matter aft the concert.

that very night, the music school also called me and told me not to take things too serious. they said as teachers will always face some irrational parents, and shall not become miserable , coz that what they want you to be. Feeling much much better after hearing from music school. As least they proved all the thing i did before hasn't been denied...

last night marked the end of YO march concert 2008. It also signifies the departure of Dinah's "dream boyfriend" , Mr Bundit. his conducting is really great!! the woodwinds came out crystal clear and i totally enjoyed playing during the concert. Being the SL doesn't seems as bad as i thought. many ppl (includes Ms Ku, Wen Jin, Mr Tay...) all said the bass section sounds good !! =) [Dinah is suggesting that becoz we got surround sound system in bass section now... so cover some unwanted noise away... lol]. so the concert turned up to be a success. and i am really proud of the bass section ^^. [including running around to get autograph from Mr Bundit, Mr Lim, Mr Tay, and the..... camera man?! ]

also met my primary school music teacher before the concert. she was the one introduced me to double bass. Haven't seen her for ages... and she doesn't seem to age at all...=.= quite surprising. but great to meet her.

mrs wong told us there is buffet and we can go and eat during haydn concerto. ben and i were complaining coz we have to play for it =.= so our lovely section mates packed 5 boxes of food for us, and we had picnic in front of VCH after the concert,under the moon. romantic right :P [actually i wish they packed the wines too... but they couldn't ><... lol, juz joking]

the king smsed us before concert to wish us good luck. that's really nice of him, considered what has happened to him recently. but he smsed at the wrong time, coz ben and YZ were fighting over the touch screen projector at funan centre with some small kids then =.= so the king had to ask them to grow up and stop being so childish ... juz like the old times :P

some photos from the concert... taken by Sandra (thanks darling ~~)

We and Mr Bundit (with his autographed concert booklet fan :P)

Dinah and me :)

Our first full section photo ^.^

The unglam me before concert :P

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中午12:19

tired

2008年3月26日星期三

i am tired... physically and mentally tired.

yesterday was too much for me... too much changes. too much jobs. too much responsibilities. too much regrets and sorry. i feel i can't breathe under this atmosphere. i am afraid to sleep now. coz i hate the feeling that i am alone in the world. and the nightmares are coming to haunt me soon...

someone save me. please.

i am not ready for the new post and new responsibility. it feels like i step on others' heads to get it. every congratulation sounds so sarcastic. it is like a curse. remind me the heavy responsibilities. it stands there, laughing, waiting to see when i am going to fall...

why is it so hard to please everyone??

apparently i failed. therefore i suffers. maybe econ is right. there are limited resources yet human wants are unlimited. so the problem of scarcity will always occur. since there is only one me, and so many people around me. collapse of interests will always happen. and i, will continue to the cause and victim of the problems...

i am tired. really tired.

people always said i am evil. but guess i am still too nice. or else why do i feel sad for others. it's not my decision. it's not my choice. but everyone think i am the cause the problem. what do you expect me to do? i am juz a JC graduate... not even an university student! i have limited working experience. how shall i face all the carnivores in the society?

so please. set me free.

life is juz too much pressure. too much expectations. miss the days when i was still young and innocent. want to be in some place, where there is no politics. no power. no money. no sch. no parents. no enemy. no hatred. no ambitions. i just want to enjoy life. enjoy every moment. enjoy making music. enjoy teaching. is that too much to ask too?

i dunno. i really dunno.

i am too burnt out to ask for an answer.

let it be. just let it be.

昔日，寒山問拾得曰：「世人謗我、欺我、辱我、笑我、輕我、賤我、厭我、騙我，如何處治乎？」

拾得云：「只是忍他、讓他、由他、避他、耐他、敬他、不要理他。且待幾年，你且看他。」

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凌晨1:39

exactly 2 months

2008年3月19日星期三

ok. this is exactly 2 months since I last update.

during this period of time, i have experience the great joy over my A level result, the great embarrassment of saying bad things abt others and ganna scolded. I have helped my bass teacher baby-sit her 3 children so she can have the spare energy to pack and move house. I have been to 1 bass section outing, 1 NTU talk and 2 university open-house. i have been teaching piano on every Friday and Sunday without break (except public holidays... yup). Other than that, I have been slacking.

see, i am really honest. (i know what you are thinking : ok. it's shameless.. to be exactly)

the truth is, i couldn't update my blog in Feb coz my parent were in Singapore. And they are going to kill me if they see me using computer everyday without a proper excuse. if you are thinking that aft my dad went back Taiwan aft CNY and my mum went back last week, i should have the time to update my blog, then YOU ARE SO WRONG!!! haha, coz i have been trying out my new computer (bought from my bro using S$100), with all the games and programme, completely forgot to update the blog, until now.

So sorry. but i am a real slacker from the bottom of my heart. as much as you think how evil i am :P

anyway, there had been some things going on in YO recently. yet i am not sure how am i going to express it. it felt like something which should keep within the section. so maybe i should keep my mouth shut on it . however, becoz of this, YO seems to be less attractive to me. I am not the kind of person suitable for politics. but this is getting serious now. sigh. guess people change once they taste the joy of having power and authority. it will never be the same.

another big sigh. ai.

time to go back to my sofa and get sedimental in front of my beloved TV...

P.S dear Ah Ma, muz i change my blog skin?? i spent 2 days to look for this one and edit it to suit my needs eh... i am not a blog expert like you anyway ><>

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中午12:39

.淑.芳.

Break The Silence

Your Journey Does Not End Here

Never Forget Your Thank Yous

Rewind