過去 已經過去 眼前 你要珍惜 Ham~~如果她願意
替我愛你 就讓她替我跟你鬥嘴鬧情緒
聽你說她很細心 善解人意 她真的比我更適合你
讓她愛你 就讓她替我陪你熱鬧或孤寂
抱歉的話別再提 就到這裡 我真心願意讓她替我愛你
2008年3月26日 星期三
昔日,寒山問拾得曰:「世人謗我、欺我、辱我、笑我、輕我、賤我、厭我、騙我,如何處治乎?」 拾得云:「只是忍他、讓他、由他、避他、耐他、敬他、不要理他。且待幾年,你且看他。」
i am tired... physically and mentally tired.
yesterday was too much for me... too much changes. too much jobs. too much responsibilities. too much regrets and sorry. i feel i can't breathe under this atmosphere. i am afraid to sleep now. coz i hate the feeling that i am alone in the world. and the nightmares are coming to haunt me soon...
someone save me. please.
i am not ready for the new post and new responsibility. it feels like i step on others' heads to get it. every congratulation sounds so sarcastic. it is like a curse. remind me the heavy responsibilities. it stands there, laughing, waiting to see when i am going to fall...
why is it so hard to please everyone??
apparently i failed. therefore i suffers. maybe econ is right. there are limited resources yet human wants are unlimited. so the problem of scarcity will always occur. since there is only one me, and so many people around me. collapse of interests will always happen. and i, will continue to the cause and victim of the problems...
i am tired. really tired.
people always said i am evil. but guess i am still too nice. or else why do i feel sad for others. it's not my decision. it's not my choice. but everyone think i am the cause the problem. what do you expect me to do? i am juz a JC graduate... not even an university student! i have limited working experience. how shall i face all the carnivores in the society?
so please. set me free.
life is juz too much pressure. too much expectations. miss the days when i was still young and innocent. want to be in some place, where there is no politics. no power. no money. no sch. no parents. no enemy. no hatred. no ambitions. i just want to enjoy life. enjoy every moment. enjoy making music. enjoy teaching. is that too much to ask too?
i dunno. i really dunno.
i am too burnt out to ask for an answer.
let it be. just let it be.
*帶著面具的小丑下台一鞠躬*
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