過去 已經過去 眼前 你要珍惜 Ham~~如果她願意
替我愛你 就讓她替我跟你鬥嘴鬧情緒
聽你說她很細心 善解人意 她真的比我更適合你
讓她愛你 就讓她替我陪你熱鬧或孤寂
抱歉的話別再提 就到這裡 我真心願意讓她替我愛你
2008年5月25日 星期日
i muz be cursed by the God this year. so i suddenly become busier than i ever was, even during my school days. all the rhsls and lessons and tuitions and works are starting to kill me!! it also includes getting unwanted responsibilities and face ppl who i cant stand with =.= *sigh*
during one of the interview, i debated with my interview abt work life balance. i told him tt i dun want to make music my career no matter how much i like it, becoz i dun want to get tired of it one day, and realized i have nothing except music. he argued tt then i will be very sad in my career, coz i have spent all my interest and love in music, so i will have nothing to spare for my career. then i rebuted by telling him tt that's why i want to choose the particular course. becoz the certain characteristics it, so i can juz imagine i am making another type of music at work :P [looks crap... but from the interviewer's face, i think i did managed to make it sound convincing =)] it sounds very ironic now. coz i am already getting tired of it. as well as all the politics behind it. i felt i am not enjoy the pure music anymore. every time i play, i am carrying such a heavy responsibility to guide everyone tt i cant concentrate on juz enjoying the music and do my best... miss the days when i can juz enjoy the music from the bottom of my heart.
multi-task is never my strength. i juz cant play my part and listen to the whole section, as well as shoot evil eyes to them whenever they play wrongly/off/out of tune... especially when i cant even read the score properly at my position and thus have to memorize the score part by part, so tt i can play and look at the conductor at the same time... is there by any chance can i change desk partner?
there are less and less happy things in yo for me to update here...
i think i need a break to search back my passion and joy and love for music...
*帶著面具的小丑下台一鞠躬*
凌晨12:12